i wont always love what i cant have

if i tell u im leaving, would u give a shit?

Maybe, if my heart stopped beating
it wont hurt this much
And never will i have to
answer again to anyone
Please don't get me wrong

Because i'll never let this go
but i can't find the words to tell you
I don't want to be alone
but now i feel like i don't know you

One day you'll get sick of
saying everything is alright
And by then i'm sure i'll be pretending
just like i am tonight

Please don't get me wrong
Because i'll never let this go
but i can't find the words to tell you
I don't want to be alone
but now i feel like i don't know you

Let this go
Let this go I'll never let this go
but i can't find the words to tell you
I don't want to be alone
but now i feel like i don't know you
Then i'll never let this go
That i can't find the words to tell you
That i don't feel that i know you

see, i told u i was right! the shit came na...

okay, ang ganda kasi ng simula ng year ko eh! solid shits tlga toh eh. okay first day of school was boring! as in freaking boring! i tried listening to the teacher coz i kinda need to, now that it's fourth quarter. im not not NOT gona be retained or gona do summer classes. im sorry, that shit is really really just not for me. school already ruined 10 months of my year, summer is all i have and ima fucking fight for that! patayan na kung patyan tangina mo! so yeah im very bitter today. pero mmya na un! haha so un nga, first day of school. then guess wat? i never went to school again.. until jan.23! i had dengue. i swear dengue fucks up your life! so it's like bad enough coz m failing na nga, i have to do 2 weeks worth of catching up! a total of 12 make up quizzes(may mga cancelled quiz na yan!). i also missed lust which really supremely shits! i was waiting for a party like super duper last year pa pero cympre during the party i was in the hospital and i can barely move. nice noh? eto pa malupit. i was in the hospital during my birthday! at hindi pa tapos! un solid dun, that was the day that my nose bled for 3 freaking hrs in the freaking madaling araw! so cympre, dasal ako diba? hirap na ako eh! pagod na ako. 3 hrs na di pa tumitigil. babawasan ko na vices ko. isa nlng titira ko at iyon, tumigil nmn.. well after a while pa but i like to think god listened to my prayers.. hahaha tapos today pa! god this day hates me do freaking much! as in just pure HATRED just staring back at me. i wish he wasnt sabaw today.. it started ng sobrang ganda eh.. i was happy.. hell i looked diff pa nga kasi i was really sincerely happy.. kaso cympre, it had to change.. ewan ko ba! of all the days... i think god just doesnt want me to expect.. kasi contrary to my beliefs, i did sumthn today that i shouldnt have done. i expected something from him.. solid noh, minsan ka lng magexpect tlga pang ipapamukha sayo na hindi lng tgla para sayo ang maging masaya. wow. salamat lord! tas today sina tinio went to ica but nothing much happened to us coz we just stayed in jolibee.. eh kasi nmn ang tamad nila eh! and yeah, wla si brando kanina! grbe miss ko na tlga un! tas i was making paalam na for the ahs fair bukas and guess what, NANAY KO HINDI AKO PINYGAN! solid shit un eh! kasi una parang okay na sa knya eh! tas bgla niya papalitan... hay.. once agen, salamat lord! so im staying home bukas. god that sucks! i swear.. today shits big freaking time! as in BIG freaking time!!! LIFE SHITS THEN YOU DIE! pero i do love my frnds! they are always there when i need them and i guess it's one thing that i have no complains about.. thanks janyn jacque gio and brando! jacque and janyn just tiiis-ed my freak attacks and pagwawala coz of today and brando n gio? well i just read their blogs and i felt lighter.. i really love those 2 boys! they are the only living male creature plus another sum1 that can me feel better w/o them being actually there.. after reading what they wrote, i swear these boys never fail to put a smile on my face. As is everytime, w/o fail, even if galit ako, as long as nakita ko na un blogs nila, im sure i'l always feel better! so agen... SALAMAT LORD! hahaha